luv sic

love you,
understand you,
validate you.
savour you,
ingest you,
consume you. 

lonely me,
ugly me,
vile me.
sadistic me,
incessant me,
choleric me.




self-flagellation
-breezy
   
It was a sick thing to realize that if I had a cock instead, I would gladly cum into my own mouth, just to feel some sort of degradation, some corrupted sense of affection, even if by my own hand.

To use something so intimately wrong as oneself to chase those brittle highs in some dark, misunderstood behavior.

There are few things sadder than mistaking self-inflicted deprecation and mistreatment as a substitute for company.
 
There are even fewer things sadder than wishing to cum in one's own mouth so as not to feel alone in their own skin.





please sir, can I have some more?
-john root

There will always be a place for you in this bleedin’ heart o’ mine.

You saw to that when you gouged a chunk out of it.

I only wish that if you had to chew me up, you didn’t spit me out.

I wish you cared enough to let the taste of us linger,

Enough to consider coming back for a second bite.

I want to believe you don’t care at all.

I want to tell myself you were just fucking with me, that you were just using me.

Something a little easier to digest than this.
Anything.
I’m starved.